Moral Issues

So here I am. Browsing for men. Wondering if I should reply to the married guy or not. What the hell. I am married and looking. Yes it was with his permission but it is still technically cheating.

Damon was single. And young. 27 to my 34. He was eager and willing but seemed kind of wild. Maybe too eager.

John and I clicked right away. He had this sarcastic sense of humor that I just enjoyed. It was nice having someone pay attention to me. Want me. He wasn't the most attractive of the three of them but I wasn't Jennifer aniston either. I really enjoyed his personality. Not to mention the fact that he was as reluctant as me..

Equally reluctant was Todd. And he was single! And hot! I was sold! We stayed up late one night chatting and we got along really well. I told him he could come over one night, have a few drinks, and see what happens. If nothing, no harm no foul! He was on board! The next day we had a naughty picture exchange through email. He was at work but I was home. Hubs would tell me which picture to send next. He told me how much he desired me... I felt certain he was the one to have fun with!

The Search

Well, I have to admit, I started with Craigslist. Casual encounters. Who knew such a thing existed? Certainly not me. I found out about it at work. A coworker frequently browsed the ads and would occasionally show me. We laughed and talked about how pathetic that was but in all reality I had no idea where to start. I didn't want it to be anyone that I knew well because that would be weird. But I am also very picky about my sexual partners so getting to know someone first was a must for me. Ironic I know.

The first ad I put out there resulted in a hundred emails within the first hour. Some with pictures!  When I would see an attachment I was like "oh great, I can see what they look like!" Ha!  I wasn't prepared to get pictures of their "manhood!" Guys are awfully proud of what they have below the belt! I didn't reply to any of them at first. I mean how can you weed through pictures of penis after penis? Besides they have to be cute enough that I won't vomit BEFORE they take their clothes off. I learned real quick which ones were manwhores and which ones weren't. I only replied to the reluctant ones. I also only replied to the ones with G rated pictures. I found Damon, John, and Todd. Two single men and one married. I was reluctant to reply to the married one. 

How I got here

Hubs did it... well not literally. We had always talked about having a threesome. I wanted two guys and he wanted two girls. But I never gave in for two reasons. 1. It is cheating And 2. I didn't know how I would react to seeing him with another woman. Nevermind that I am straight and have never even kissed a girl! I have been curious but Kitty licking ain't my thing. Blame it on knowing too much!

Last summer I lost someone dear to me. I got depressed. Needed an outlet. I caved. I started searching for our third. You wouldn't believe how easy it was for me and how hard it was for him! For every girl he talked to, I had 20 willing and waiting men! Gals if you think your man ain't cheatin think again!!! Two words. Ashley Madison. Set up a fake profile and go look for yourself.

Wife and Mom

Before you go and judge, let me explain a little about myself. I am a 35 year old married mother of two young children. I have been married for 6 years. I grew up in a normal home meaning no substance abuse or broken marriage. I have one sibling. Was close to my mom and grandma. I grew up in the Bible belt but my family is not super religious. I have a steady job working 9-5 Monday through Friday. I take the kiddos to daycare and school. I have some minor depression but it is under control with medication. We have a dog and a mortgage.

Life is pretty much normal.... on the surface.